First thing i was thinking is what the hell am i doing here. Is it worthed go this far. But i guess it's already late to think like that. Minute ago i still wanted to go back. I don't want to be here alone and doing nothing. How am i gonna found the answer here..feels soooo stupid. But then again, i need a time break. Don't want to think bout anything. Just enjoy this alone moment.
Almost all day i spent,sitting on the bed. After all the words and the reality that suddenly slipped in my brain,i cried. Feels like i wanted to yelled to God,why this is have to happen to me. Am i that bad..am i not worthed for anyone, after all i have give to them. Why they have to be that bad to me? What have i done until they don't care bout me, bout my feeling. Don't they know that it hurts me badly. Why don't they just let me to be happy.
Why love became the most hurting thing, while it supposed to be the most happiest thing that i would have in my life. Suddenly i feel exhausted. I cried and criend until i get tired. Until my brains stop thinking. Then i stay in silence for very very long time. My heart and my brain feels empty. And just like a broken movie that keep repeating the same slide, and it's written why. Only why. It was the loneliest moment i ever feel in my whole life.
Then finally i fall asleep. Unconcious..dont remember anything. My brains refuse to think,my heart refuse to feel dan my body refuse to move.
Location:Jalan Malioboro,Yogyakarta,Indonesia
